Change

Ah...I bough a book about "How to Simplify Your Life". It's great and I only read first few pages. I realized that I need to change as I have many things up in my mind. Everything seems disorder. Now I need to order myself. First, start at home. Throw everything that is expired. Arrange everything in order for easy search and label them. It's a hectic day today and yesterday.

Yesterday, I just won a Silver medal in SUKMUM. Though we won in the team spirit but I felt that my performance was not there. I felt something was amiss and now I understand what I lack of. I need to strengthen my endgame. I can gain advantages in the opening and middlegame, but not how to convert that to a winning point. I bought a book about endgame too, thus I will learn some everyday.

After SUKMUM, I went for gathering. It's the most exciting day for me too meet coursemates again after so long. Guess I was the last person to reach there. Sorry for that guys.... Glad to see everyone is in tip top condition. It has been a long time no see Ah Fai...nearly can't recognise him. The rest, I still got see them...haha..no changes...Wish everyone Happy Chinese New Year...

After reunion dinner, Alicia and I went to Syuen's house for mahjong. We had a fantastic games where Alicia won most of the games. I got the "ghost pieces" for the entire time...When I want to win, Alicia won first... :( ....Guess luck was not on my side that day. Well, let's not think about negative things. Think of a better tomorrow.

As for today, I went to Midvalley to treat my hair. It was crowded and I walked for 7 hours. I spent quite a lot today just for food. I just love to eat. Eating is the most enjoyable thing for a human.

When I type this, I flashbacked on a lot of things. All of a sudden, love topic. I would laugh myself over this thought of a sudden. What is Love by the way? Can love become hatred? Well, it depends on people. Some may have let go everything, while some may still keep it. For me, I just cleared that long time ago, just like formatting a computer. It's just a past.

Now, I have my own world. Friend from all around the world. Love? Neh...Friends love, family love...bla bla bla...As long as I am happy, that's what matter. I am thinking, will a gal ever ask me, "Do u love/like me?". What would be my reaction? I guess, my answer now would be if I love the gal, "I dare not to think. Dare not to think means dare not to think." The answer would be the same like the HK Drama "Mooncake Resonance". I had opened up my mind. In this world, nothing is perfect. Storms comes and go just like that.

Next time, if I have a good feel on a gal, I would just treat her nice. Loving someone from heart is not necessary to be together. It's great when you see her happy, and solve her problem when noone is there. My answer would be the above. I just don't want that to be turned into hatred or avoidance. Sometimes, it's best to keep silence just like in one of the Jay Chou's song.

Well, for me now, just enjoy and build up my fortunes.. Nothing comes easy but nothing is impossible, though impossible is nothing. If there is a will, there is a way. A person who does not try before, will never understand the hardship to achieve success.