Sometimes, I just feel that I don't want to continue my master. I am getting nowhere in the project. There seems to be like no guidance at all. How would my life be in the next 6 mths? My project is regarding about diapers. Right, about diapers with a system. From the beginning of this project, I am alone. They only gave ideas and recommendations. It's easy to just give the talk rather than doing themselves. I had to play with urine for god sake, carrying out test in the dirty room that consisted bacterias and viruses. No one would understand how I felt when I did the testing. They just want the result. If I got infected with viruses, who would care anyway.
What am I suppose to write for conference paper or journals? Effectiveness? Productivity? Heck, the hospital banned such a thing that was created bulky and inconvenience. I just don't know where to start and how to start. If I have a chance, I would rather take up coursework and dissertations rather than full research, which I feel alone. When I carry out this project in a dirty room, I got real sick with it due to I had to be in the dirty room more than 5 hours. Not even my supervisor would care about it even if I got sick. The nurses there advised me not to stay in the dirty room all the time as they feared for my health.
Feeling suicidal sometimes coz of this project. It's just like the same thing happen for another project which I agreed last time. I'd finish the 100 signs but with 2000+ designs. It took me a long time to render them. At first, I thought it was only 100 designs with the payment of RM600. It wasn't. I felt helplessly in that because I realized that the work I did, did not really compensate what I do. I feel that I really need a break, but heck, I can't coz I am laden with debts.
What am I suppose to write for conference paper or journals? Effectiveness? Productivity? Heck, the hospital banned such a thing that was created bulky and inconvenience. I just don't know where to start and how to start. If I have a chance, I would rather take up coursework and dissertations rather than full research, which I feel alone. When I carry out this project in a dirty room, I got real sick with it due to I had to be in the dirty room more than 5 hours. Not even my supervisor would care about it even if I got sick. The nurses there advised me not to stay in the dirty room all the time as they feared for my health.
Feeling suicidal sometimes coz of this project. It's just like the same thing happen for another project which I agreed last time. I'd finish the 100 signs but with 2000+ designs. It took me a long time to render them. At first, I thought it was only 100 designs with the payment of RM600. It wasn't. I felt helplessly in that because I realized that the work I did, did not really compensate what I do. I feel that I really need a break, but heck, I can't coz I am laden with debts.
3 comments:
Jia you..
Good luck..
fast fast go get a lui san.. then may b u wil feel no so stress o.. hehe
add oil
just pray hard and hopefully things go smoothly as you wish :)
Cheers..dont be so pessimistic.
I am sure you can overcome this hurdle...ganbatee kudasai !!
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