I spent 3 years working as fugitive in UM, trying for soul searching. Men worries about 4 things: Love, Family, Career and Financial. I used to put Love as the 1st priority over the others, till someone gave me a precious quote that changed my whole world in 2007. I still remember vividly the day I was at the Sukan Antara Staf-staf Universiti Malaysia, in Perlis, I had to fight 11 rounds against my opponents. That time, my mind was not in a good state as I was considering whether should I drop the idea. The thinking made me a cruel-some beast on the board, where I won 7.5 / 11 points. When I was on my way back to KL, I didn't sleep much on the bus, that I gave myself a final chance. It was my birthday during that travel time, in the end, I decided to put a full stop to it. I buried all the promises in the graveyard. From then on, I choose chess as my best friend, whom I shall speak to, for I managed to get my FIDE rating in 2010.
During the past 3 years, I searched what's the reason I live for. I started to learn what is investment. Some losses and some winnings, that's part of the price for learning real life experiences. After all the long journey, it's like a long winded road, which I should have taken it long time ago. I should have put career as my 1st priority from the early. I realized that life is not just like a screensaver. There are obstacles everywhere that I need to go through. I should have come to Singapore early for my career advancement. With this, I thank those who had given me the moral support when I was feeling lowest in my life. You just know who you were.
Today I watched Taiwan drama, Autumn's Concerto. It's a very touching drama that I wept over it. I realized how fortunate we are. Be grateful for what we have. It's about love. The feeling that I have lost touch for a very long time. My main priority now is to build a fortune. Hopefully I can settle my car loan and PTPTN within 5-6 months. It's best if I can paid them up fast. Whatever is borrowed, must be paid back. That's the policy to be a human. If I ever come across Love again, I will see the person's personality. Sometimes, the one a person marries is not the one he/she loves the most.
In 2011, I have readied my resolutions. Wait for the next postings.......... To be continued..
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