Round 1 Team Tournament

Round 1: Board 1 - Brian vs Tan Jun Feng (1801) 1/2-1/2

Waiting for pairing

It has been my pleasure to be able to play in a team. It was a tense game for me as I had to play with a FIDE rated 1801 player. I didn't know that till the game was over. I was losing at first, but the never give up spirit would spur me to keep going on because there was still 0.01% luck. When it came the the ending part, I tried my best to achieve a draw position. Well, who would love to draw a winning position when all it matters were tactical and endings. Thank god the result was 3-1.

李克勤红日

Red - red day

Words: Hacken Lee
lyrics: hacken lee
Addendum: Fong Shu Liang
arranged: kenneth fong
Dish: Red Sun
album: red day

Even if the fate of displaced
even if life is crazy
Even if the fate of bizarre twists and turns
and the road is twisted and winding
Even if the fate of a man not to intimidate you interesting
if life terrifies you and you no longer feel like living
Should not be sad Do not give up in tears
please don't cry, or feel disheartened, don't give up
I would like to accompany your life forever
I will be by your side forever


Their lives that would look obvious indecision
with the twists and turns of life, how can one see clearly?
I also tried a loss of the iceberg独坐not like to help
I have tried to make it on my own without help
Young in a year that I
in those years, when I was young
Fall much more than a few tears in the torrential rainy night
I fell so many times, with the tears keeping me company through the rainy nights
I would also like to winding their lives through
the path of life so twisted and winding, I have walked it
Since when have you have you with me to shoot and I warmly
when did you start to accompany me on this path, giving me encouragement?
Like the red sun is really the point I火燃
like the red sun, this fire lights up the real me
Qianshan trip together will also踏过
walking together, we can climb a thousand mountains


Let evening wind blowing gently
watching the night wind lightly blowing past
Send flowers with a quiet blessing like you and me
bringing with it the fragrant scent of flowers, as if bestowing its wishes on us

Let evening stars gently flash
watching the night stars shooting by
Hope that you each came about as damp I spray
revealing your every wish like waves about to fall on me

Life

Sometimes, I just feel that I don't want to continue my master. I am getting nowhere in the project. There seems to be like no guidance at all. How would my life be in the next 6 mths? My project is regarding about diapers. Right, about diapers with a system. From the beginning of this project, I am alone. They only gave ideas and recommendations. It's easy to just give the talk rather than doing themselves. I had to play with urine for god sake, carrying out test in the dirty room that consisted bacterias and viruses. No one would understand how I felt when I did the testing. They just want the result. If I got infected with viruses, who would care anyway.

What am I suppose to write for conference paper or journals? Effectiveness? Productivity? Heck, the hospital banned such a thing that was created bulky and inconvenience. I just don't know where to start and how to start. If I have a chance, I would rather take up coursework and dissertations rather than full research, which I feel alone. When I carry out this project in a dirty room, I got real sick with it due to I had to be in the dirty room more than 5 hours. Not even my supervisor would care about it even if I got sick. The nurses there advised me not to stay in the dirty room all the time as they feared for my health.

Feeling suicidal sometimes coz of this project. It's just like the same thing happen for another project which I agreed last time. I'd finish the 100 signs but with 2000+ designs. It took me a long time to render them. At first, I thought it was only 100 designs with the payment of RM600. It wasn't. I felt helplessly in that because I realized that the work I did, did not really compensate what I do. I feel that I really need a break, but heck, I can't coz I am laden with debts.

Love Story

It's a nice song. Though probably outdated a little while, yet it's still nice. I will upload the song on Monday. I lost the feeling long time but upon hearing this music, I become alive back.

We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I’m standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights
See the party, the ball gowns
See you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don’t go, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I’ll be waiting, all there’s left to do is run
You’ll be the prince and I’ll be the princess
It’s a love story baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet cause we’re dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything of me
I was begging you please don’t go and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I’ll be waiting all there’s left to do is run
You’ll be the prince and I’ll be the princess
It’s a love story baby just say yes

Romeo save me, they’re tryin to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it’s real
Don’t be afraid, we’ll make it out of this mess
It’s a love story baby just say yes
Oh oh

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

Romeo save me I’ve been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head? I don’t know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said, marry me Juliet
You’ll never have to be alone
I love you and that’s all I really know
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress
It’s a love story baby just say yes

Oh, oh,
Oh, oh
Cause we were both young when I first saw you…

Finance

I went to house showroom last week. I was stunned with the house prices. It was damn expensive. I can say that all of them more than RM300k. How the hell am I afford to buy it myself? With the salary nowadays, one can hardly pay one lump sum for the house. How many people can do that? There are 95% employee in this world and I bet that not more than 50% can do that or probably 70%.

Let say the house prices increase 10% yearly, but the salary increase 10% yearly, will that be the same or different? A 300k with 10% increase will be RM330k, while a salary, 3k with 10% will be RM3300. Are we going to be the slave forever, borrowing money from the bank and pay for 30 years till we retired?

How many of you ever thought of buying a house? I bet 99% thought about it. I need to work out my plan or get a girlfriend myself to buy that house together. Probably we can treasure the relationship like that.

I invested near to 70%. I hope that one day they would yield me some money to buy house. Well, I am not born with silver spoon in my mouth. One must be able to feed the family too. Thus, one must think of himself before we and thee.

Love

Love isn't about material or how great a person is. It comes from a feeling. The feeling that is hard to explain. Is love bound by materials nowadays? I for sure despise such an act. Probably it's for their own security, but one day, God will ask. The greed that blindfolded the love, may prove that the relationship will sour if one day, they suffer material losses.

I am now on the way to create more chances to create wealth. I don't want to attract people with my wealth. I want to learn more. If someone really in the relationship now, ask yourself several questions:
1. Why do you love a person?
2. What is the meaning of wealth to you?
3. Is richness really that important?
4. Do you like to do comparison?

I shall answer that from different point of view....

Blogging

Blogging is a form like written diary for people to see. There are many types of blogs. Some use it to express what they do everyday, some use it as an e-commerce tools to sell things. Well, I can't believe that blogging can earn a small amount of money. Though not much, but if I can open a few more blogs, this few can make a mountain. Now I know what exactly should I blog everyday. Just hope that some readers here would visit them. My new blog would be for my programming course. I will write something on their labs and exercises. Hope that it can give me some pay cheque as well....Heh....