Never Give Up

It took me 2 years to do soul searching about life. There were ups and downs. It was hard then, till I manage to get my first FIDE rating, 1862. Though, it was not high, but it was an achievement that I believe I can do it. I even ran 12KM on 10th April, though I had leg cramped, I still continue my journey till the finish line. I'd seen many things and listen to many stories about life misery.

For example on love. It takes 2 to dance a tango, but it needs deep trust towards each other too. One must not throw the temper to the other half, if there's any misunderstandings or arguments. How many would be able to hold the temper? I believe it's 1% guys out there can do that. It's better to resolve any conflicts amicably.

For those in relationship. Cherish every seconds and be grateful with what you own now. Humans always think that the grass is greener on the other side of the field. It's always assumption. Don't assume.

For those who break up. Be strong. It's not the end of the world. There's a lot more of great things to achieve, than hanging on to the past. Cry it out loud and you will feel relieve after that. If the person does not cherish you for who you are, then you must treasure yourself, friends and family around you, for they will be there for you.

Everyday is a learning process. NEVER GIVE UP HOPE. The hope is not about barking on the return of the past, but to walk in the present. The hope is at the present, about what you have now, who would cherish you.

Listen to the songs below and understand that, it's a learning process. There'll be always someone who cherish you.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gYCEzZr4BBw

The Brand New Day

A quote from somewhere "I think music in itself is healing. It's an explosive expression of humanity. It's something we are all touched by. No matter what culture we're from, everyone loves music." And I added mine, thus I crossed the Earth and Sea to reach the new Atlantis after imprisonment in the past for 2 years, to seek enlightenment. I finally reach Atlantis, where I should be heading earlier, yet, better late than never.....

I had been living in the past for 2 years, reflecting what had I lost. In fact, there's nothing to lose. It's just like an investment, though time was spent. Everything is buried down with sands and concrete, to entombed the effects. A sarcophagus was built around to contain the leaks. It's just another chapter in life, and that's the end of Chapter 1. With the life in Atlantis, everything seems hassle and busy, yet, sometimes, I need some relaxation. Maybe I can get a vacation in the next few months, accompanied by my Nikon DSLR D7000, I hope to capture some beautiful moments of nature, that I can see with myself. Maybe travelling alone would be better, for me to enjoy the nature.

Learn from the past, to plan for the present, to better the future. I shall prioritize what, who, where and when. I may seems like running away from something, but, it's due to the sarcophagus, that had contained it.

In investment, I can give advices, but, I would prefer refrain myself from letting anyone giving me their resources to invest for them. I'd seen cases, where blames take course when it fails. When I venture into my 1st mutual fund, I was a risk taker. I know that there will be people who can't take the risk, thus, I advised them not to invest in it. As I was able to withstand the risk, I invested in. There were people blaming me for investing in it while asking them not to invest the same thing. When the economic crisis came, the mutual fund drop to a very low, and took around 2 years, yet, I leverage them down. Right up until now, the price is still low compared to others. From there, I learn a lesson. it's better to ask the person, "what type of investors are you?". Though I made some earnings and losses, it's a lesson to learn too.

Here, I present a song from Jay Chou: 说了再见

Time

Earthquake shake Japan with a 8.9 magnitude scalar Richter. When I watched those videos, I realized that many unexpected things can happen to our life. Thus, I think maybe I should do something with my life. It has been dull all this moment. I need to think. After my lasik, I will complete the unfinished task that has been planned recently. I shall need to make a timetable to plan my time wisely when I am at home.

With the coming chess tournament in Singapore, I shall need to train 2 hours during the weekends. I shall strengthen my Queen's Gambit, Sicillian Dragpn and Semi Slav to the next level. If there is a chance where if I can hit my goal, I shall play chess forever. That's my dream.

Whenever I play chess, if I lose a game to the unfamiliar openings for me, I will checked it in the chessbase and learn how to refute it. Time is so precious that, I finally need to up my investment knowledge. I should set my goal in investments too.

龙卷风

This specific lyric has impacted on my life. When the world is tumbling upside down, it blew me to the other side of the world where I must treat myself even better. This song is translated from Jay chou's Tornado. In the end, I left quietly. Listening again from the Concert 2010.

Love is like a gust of wind
It leaves after it has blown
This sort of rhythm
Would frustrate anybody
After I lost you
I lost my soul
Dark clouds are descending
I am dragged along

Quietly, softly, sadly leaving
Sinking deep into danger ? baby
It's like my world has been ripped apart by violent wind and rain

Love came too quickly, just like a tornado
Can't leave the storm and it's too late to escape
I can't think about this again
I can't think about this again
I can't

Love left too quickly just like a tornado
I can't take it and I have no where to hide
I don't want to think about it again
I don't want to think about it again
I don't

I don't want to think about you again

Unknowingly, unfeelingly, you have already left me
Unknowingly, unfeelingly, I follow this rhythm
Looking back, another autumn has passed
Looking back, I should have lived my life better

Ni Bu Zhi Dao De Shi 你不知道的事

I am addicted to this song suddenly.

Lyricist：Leehom Wang & Rui Ye

Composer：Leehom Wang
Director: Leehom Wang

蝴蝶眨几次眼睛
Hu die zha ji chi yan jing
How many times does a butterfly blink
才学会飞行
Cai xue hui fei xing
Before it learns to fly?
夜空洒满了星星
Ye kong sai man le xing xing
The sky is sprinkled over with countless stars
但几颗会落地
Dan ji ke hui luo di
But how many there will remain?

我飞行 当你坠落之际
Wo fei xing Dang ni zui luo zhi ji
Even as I fly, you fall
很靠近 还听见呼吸
Hen kao jing Hai ting jian hu xi
So close I can hear you breathe
对不起 我却没捉紧你
Dui bu qi Wo que mei zhuo jin ni
So sorry I didn't keep hold of you

你不知道我为什么离开你
Ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me li kai ni
You don't know why I had to leave you
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
Wo jian chi bu neng shuo fang ren ni ku qi
How could I ignore your every cry
你的泪滴想倾盆大雨 碎落满地
Ni de lei di xiang qing pen da yu Sui luo man di
All the while the downpour of your tears shattering the ground
在心里清晰
Zai xin li qing xi
So clearly pierced my heart
你不知道我为什么狠下心
Ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me hen xia xin
You don't know why I had to keep away
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
Pan xuan zai ni kan bu jian de gao kong li
Circling in the sky above, just out of sight
多的是 你不知道的事
Duo de shi Ni bu zi dao de shi
So many are the things you never knew

蝴蝶眨几次眼睛
Hu die zha ji chi yan jing
How many times does a butterfly blink
才学会飞行
Cai xue hui fei xing
Before it learns to fly?
夜空洒满了星星
Ye kong sai man le xing xing
The sky is sprinkled over with countless stars
但几颗会落地
Dan ji ke hui luo di
But how many there will remain?

我飞行 当你坠落之际
Wo fei xing Dang ni zui luo zhi ji
Even as I fly, you fall
很靠近 还听见呼吸
Hen kao jing Hai ting jian hu xi
So close I can hear you breathe
对不起 我却没捉紧你
Dui bu qi Wo que mei zhuo jin ni
So sorry I didn't keep hold of you

你不知道我为什么离开你
Ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me li kai ni
You don't know why I had to leave you
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
Wo jian chi bu neng shuo fang ren ni ku qi
How could I ignore your every cry
你的泪滴想倾盆大雨 碎落满地
Ni de lei di xiang qing pen da yu Sui luo man di
All the while the downpour of your tears shattering the ground
在心里清晰
Zai xin li qing xi
So clearly pierced my heart
你不知道我为什么狠下心
Ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me hen xia xin
You don't know why I had to keep away
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
Pan xuan zai ni kan bu jian de gao kong li
Circling in the sky above, just out of sight
多的是 你不知道的事
Duo de shi Ni bu zi dao de shi
So many are the things you never knew

我飞行 当你坠落之际
Wo fei xing Dang ni zui luo zhi ji
Even as I fly, you fall
噢噢~
o o

你不知道我为什么离开你
Ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me li kai ni
You don't know why I had to leave you
我坚持不能说放任你哭泣
Wo jian chi bu neng shuo fang ren ni ku qi
How could I ignore your every cry
你的泪滴想倾盆大雨 碎落满地
Ni de lei di xiang qing pen da yu Sui luo man di
All the while the downpour of your tears shattering the ground
在心里清晰
Zai xin li qing xi
So clearly pierced my heart
你不知道我为什么狠下心
Ni bu zhi dao wo wei shen me hen xia xin
You don't know why I had to keep away
盘旋在你看不见的高空里
Pan xuan zai ni kan bu jian de gao kong li
Circling in the sky above, just out of sight
多的是 你不知道的事
Duo de shi Ni bu zi dao de shi
So many are the things you never knew

2011

I had a very busy day last few days/ weeks ago. I didn't go anywhere for New Year celebration. I was too tired to go to crowded places. All I hope was a good night sleep on Jan 1 and 2, to recharge back my energy. Up till now, I have been coughing for 2 months, due to hectic, non stop task to clear.

The greatest hurdle for me in 2010 was actually to understand on the logics, ever since taking over the tasks. It's actually a nightmare for developers to understand what is not origin from his own writings. There were lots of testing way not written down to assist in the development life cycle. Due to time constraints, lots of the essential testing documentations were not written. Thus, it prohibits any knowledge transfer if there is any. Without that, it will consume many hours trying to figure out what's the logic behind. I need to clear all my backlog and start writing testing documentations in case, there is a handover in the future. I just need more time for that.

I just hope that I won't collapse under this enormous knowledge barrier. Everything needs to be done fast. There's not much time for me to think. So, I need to think of a way to minimize the risk in codes and testing. Nearly 70% of the time is consumed in investigating things that we don't know sometime. I still have many things to learn around.

I have 2 deadly task on hand, and both can be lethal if they come to me at the same time. Which one shall I settle first? I just need more time to teach the new person as well. As a student, I understand the feeling of how it takes time to adapt to the new environment and logics. As a tutor, I understand the student's feeling in learning new things/ logics. Hope that I can get the backup from the new people.

I shall plan my previous annual leaves too, tomorrow. I plan to take 9 days for my Lasik treatment in April. and 4 days separately in March and May. At the same time, I will have to seek the doctor's treatment tomorrow for my cough. Hope it's not something serious.

Rubber Stocks

With a few of the good rubber companies in Malaysia, if I have enough bullet, I will wait for the next round of investing in it. Rubber stocks have been facing some knocks lately due to latex soaring prices. With that, the nett profits drop and affected the companies revenue. Everyone is looking at properties bubble, but will there be commodities bubble? Every commodities has been soaring to new high. It'll take a toll on the companies that rely on the commodities. The effect will then be passed to the consumers.

I aim for at least 3 rubber stocks. I have one in mind at this moment, and if it does hit my entry price, I will grab that for sure as my investment. I have telecommunications, petrochemicals, alcohols and REIT as my portfolio. I do hope that I can make some from the rubber stocks. I am just waiting for it to drop, as now it is still dropping.

At the same time, I dropped the idea of iPhone 4. Too many procedures to apply or get one in Singapore. Maybe getting a camera would be more realistic. Would 2011 be a fine run where everyone is predicting a super bull run? Will that last when everything is hitting new high?

I will be changing my SG phone number in 2011 to lessen the cost of it, since prepaid would be more viable for me as I am using less to call out.