Deep Inside

I am sitting here writing my blog. For the past few months, I had been wandering around too much. I lost my concentration and think a lot of stuff. Everything seems urgent to handle. My mind is just too tired. Maybe deep down inside, I am lonely. Maybe that's the bachelor's life at this moment. Looking for the right one to settle down. There are options, but what are my future ahead? Sometimes, I do ask myself this question: "Which one do you prefer? A person who love you more than you love her/him? or vice versa." I don't know the answer for I don't want to hurt anyone. I just don't know...whether is that the right one. I don't want to think too much, for I don't want to wander around anymore. I am glad that she is around, but I can't commit myself into it at this moment. If I were to commit myself, I am not sure whether I can give 100% commitment anymore. Just let the destiny decides.

One of the leader, Jimmy Lai told me that as a man, whether husband or boyfriend, one must not be a chauvinist, that only hear of himself without thinking about others. It's true that, when a relationship enters into a few years time, everything will be dull. A man must help his woman around no matter where he is. One must let down the ego in order to have a stable relationship and not by comparing the other half.

I am just too tired...way too tired...that I want to escape from the human population that only got sea. I shall lie down on the beach and sip my red wine, enjoying the sea breeze. I need a break.

As human got multiple personalities, I do hope that I can terminate one of the personalities, which terrorize my mind. It distracts me. If given a chance, I would eliminate all my memories because it can terminate the personality off from my mind.