Round 1 Team Tournament

Round 1: Board 1 - Brian vs Tan Jun Feng (1801) 1/2-1/2

Waiting for pairing

It has been my pleasure to be able to play in a team. It was a tense game for me as I had to play with a FIDE rated 1801 player. I didn't know that till the game was over. I was losing at first, but the never give up spirit would spur me to keep going on because there was still 0.01% luck. When it came the the ending part, I tried my best to achieve a draw position. Well, who would love to draw a winning position when all it matters were tactical and endings. Thank god the result was 3-1.

李克勤红日

Red - red day

Words: Hacken Lee
lyrics: hacken lee
Addendum: Fong Shu Liang
arranged: kenneth fong
Dish: Red Sun
album: red day

Even if the fate of displaced
even if life is crazy
Even if the fate of bizarre twists and turns
and the road is twisted and winding
Even if the fate of a man not to intimidate you interesting
if life terrifies you and you no longer feel like living
Should not be sad Do not give up in tears
please don't cry, or feel disheartened, don't give up
I would like to accompany your life forever
I will be by your side forever


Their lives that would look obvious indecision
with the twists and turns of life, how can one see clearly?
I also tried a loss of the iceberg独坐not like to help
I have tried to make it on my own without help
Young in a year that I
in those years, when I was young
Fall much more than a few tears in the torrential rainy night
I fell so many times, with the tears keeping me company through the rainy nights
I would also like to winding their lives through
the path of life so twisted and winding, I have walked it
Since when have you have you with me to shoot and I warmly
when did you start to accompany me on this path, giving me encouragement?
Like the red sun is really the point I火燃
like the red sun, this fire lights up the real me
Qianshan trip together will also踏过
walking together, we can climb a thousand mountains


Let evening wind blowing gently
watching the night wind lightly blowing past
Send flowers with a quiet blessing like you and me
bringing with it the fragrant scent of flowers, as if bestowing its wishes on us

Let evening stars gently flash
watching the night stars shooting by
Hope that you each came about as damp I spray
revealing your every wish like waves about to fall on me

Life

Sometimes, I just feel that I don't want to continue my master. I am getting nowhere in the project. There seems to be like no guidance at all. How would my life be in the next 6 mths? My project is regarding about diapers. Right, about diapers with a system. From the beginning of this project, I am alone. They only gave ideas and recommendations. It's easy to just give the talk rather than doing themselves. I had to play with urine for god sake, carrying out test in the dirty room that consisted bacterias and viruses. No one would understand how I felt when I did the testing. They just want the result. If I got infected with viruses, who would care anyway.

What am I suppose to write for conference paper or journals? Effectiveness? Productivity? Heck, the hospital banned such a thing that was created bulky and inconvenience. I just don't know where to start and how to start. If I have a chance, I would rather take up coursework and dissertations rather than full research, which I feel alone. When I carry out this project in a dirty room, I got real sick with it due to I had to be in the dirty room more than 5 hours. Not even my supervisor would care about it even if I got sick. The nurses there advised me not to stay in the dirty room all the time as they feared for my health.

Feeling suicidal sometimes coz of this project. It's just like the same thing happen for another project which I agreed last time. I'd finish the 100 signs but with 2000+ designs. It took me a long time to render them. At first, I thought it was only 100 designs with the payment of RM600. It wasn't. I felt helplessly in that because I realized that the work I did, did not really compensate what I do. I feel that I really need a break, but heck, I can't coz I am laden with debts.

Love Story

It's a nice song. Though probably outdated a little while, yet it's still nice. I will upload the song on Monday. I lost the feeling long time but upon hearing this music, I become alive back.

We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I’m standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights
See the party, the ball gowns
See you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don’t go, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I’ll be waiting, all there’s left to do is run
You’ll be the prince and I’ll be the princess
It’s a love story baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet cause we’re dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while

Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything of me
I was begging you please don’t go and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I’ll be waiting all there’s left to do is run
You’ll be the prince and I’ll be the princess
It’s a love story baby just say yes

Romeo save me, they’re tryin to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it’s real
Don’t be afraid, we’ll make it out of this mess
It’s a love story baby just say yes
Oh oh

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

Romeo save me I’ve been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head? I don’t know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

And said, marry me Juliet
You’ll never have to be alone
I love you and that’s all I really know
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress
It’s a love story baby just say yes

Oh, oh,
Oh, oh
Cause we were both young when I first saw you…

Finance

I went to house showroom last week. I was stunned with the house prices. It was damn expensive. I can say that all of them more than RM300k. How the hell am I afford to buy it myself? With the salary nowadays, one can hardly pay one lump sum for the house. How many people can do that? There are 95% employee in this world and I bet that not more than 50% can do that or probably 70%.

Let say the house prices increase 10% yearly, but the salary increase 10% yearly, will that be the same or different? A 300k with 10% increase will be RM330k, while a salary, 3k with 10% will be RM3300. Are we going to be the slave forever, borrowing money from the bank and pay for 30 years till we retired?

How many of you ever thought of buying a house? I bet 99% thought about it. I need to work out my plan or get a girlfriend myself to buy that house together. Probably we can treasure the relationship like that.

I invested near to 70%. I hope that one day they would yield me some money to buy house. Well, I am not born with silver spoon in my mouth. One must be able to feed the family too. Thus, one must think of himself before we and thee.

Love

Love isn't about material or how great a person is. It comes from a feeling. The feeling that is hard to explain. Is love bound by materials nowadays? I for sure despise such an act. Probably it's for their own security, but one day, God will ask. The greed that blindfolded the love, may prove that the relationship will sour if one day, they suffer material losses.

I am now on the way to create more chances to create wealth. I don't want to attract people with my wealth. I want to learn more. If someone really in the relationship now, ask yourself several questions:
1. Why do you love a person?
2. What is the meaning of wealth to you?
3. Is richness really that important?
4. Do you like to do comparison?

I shall answer that from different point of view....

Blogging

Blogging is a form like written diary for people to see. There are many types of blogs. Some use it to express what they do everyday, some use it as an e-commerce tools to sell things. Well, I can't believe that blogging can earn a small amount of money. Though not much, but if I can open a few more blogs, this few can make a mountain. Now I know what exactly should I blog everyday. Just hope that some readers here would visit them. My new blog would be for my programming course. I will write something on their labs and exercises. Hope that it can give me some pay cheque as well....Heh....

Prophecy or Dream

I had a dream last night. It was the 3rd kind of dream that seems serious and in the past, it happened exactly like what I dream of. Isn't that is scary? When I was small, and that time I was ill, laying on the bed doing nothing. I dream about myself getting number 1 in a prize giving ceremony. It ended up really true that I got that prize in Primary 6. How true is the dream in our life? I had a 2nd dream but I forgot what was that.

Now the 3rd dream happened last night. I just pray that it will not be true. Though it's of not my jurisdiction to interfere, I am still made of flesh. Well, sometimes, you just need to let it through. That's Yin and Yang. I can't interfere with the nature's line of duty if this dream becomes a reality. Just hope that it's only a dream. It just happened instantly like a real drama. All I want is a good night sleep. Now that I know everything happens for a reason, I just let it be and open my eyes to see whether will it happen. If it is, then it is God's destiny. I can't stop the God's destiny as everyone ought to choose his/ her own way of living. The dreams happened when I was sick and on the same bed at home.

If this dream really happens exactly, all I can do is to offer my sincere help and advise. I will not do more than what I can do. There will always be a borderline forever. The resistance and will is so strong that can make me think what is wrong and right. I shall not reveal my 3rd dream here, as it does not happen yet. True or not, I can only see for I shall not block what is going to happen as it is not up to my concern. If it does not happen, I shall bless the life with joy, otherwise, I shall just console.

I watch a movie yesterday night called The Bulletproof Monk. There is one questions that really impressed me. Why there is 10 hot dogs but only 8 buns in a packaging? Sometimes, I learn all this from movie, and they enlighten me to another level. When I asked certain people, they gave all sorts of questions back to me. Instead all I want is a straight forward answer instead of "Why not 12 hot dogs?"...OMG...several ppl said this. For god sake, it doesn't matter, no matter how much are the hot dogs, the buns will always be less than the hot dogs in a packaging....Geez...they need to be precisely inform about that. Life is just simple, why would they complicated it back with more questions.

Gosh..it's 1.30 am now. I better go to sleep. I still have a flight to catch tomorrow. Some miracles are going to happen. I just cross my fingers, eating pop corns and see whether this dream really happens or not. One shall not meddle with the destiny, or bad luck shall be cast upon him.

Selangor Open 2009

I had a fantastic day at Selangor Open. I was unrated in that event but it didn't matter because all I wanted was to enjoy my game and evaluate my positions. I wanted to get the FIDE rating this year, then I will retire from International level.

During the first round, I didn't know that I was playing against Baharuddin, the Kelantan Champion. I wasn't sure because Stonemaster told me about it. Well, it was a hard fought draw. He was unrated as well. He brought his students to play in the Selangor Open. My 2nd round was against a former state champion, Shiva. He hadn't played for 20 years and he plans to make a comeback. Probably due to haven't been playing for 20 years, he might have lost touch to some of the tactics. I won that game.

The crucial moment came in the 3rd round. I was paired to play against a FIDE rated 2076, Chew Yaw Chong. It was a draw from a losing game from me. I kept defending in a losing battle. I squeezed every inch of the board looking for compensations as I was a pawn down and a piece difference. Well, anything can happen as long as I don't lose a piece. If i do, I shall resign immediately. This would be my 1st draw against FIDE rated.

The 4th round was against Pereira, a 1888 FIDE rated. It was a drawish game, but he made the mistake by sending his king to my side. All I just did was a checkmate with knight and bishop. The basic theme in checkmate. So, now my score against FIDE rated would be 1.5.

On Saturday, I had 3 games in a row. I knew that if I were to play with another FIDE rated player, I will lose my 6th round. So, in my 5th round, I played against 2027, Masrin. I was under tremendous attack from him and I try to equalize whatever he had. Instead, of me doing that perpetual check, he did it first. So I drew.

Then came the next round. I was so tired that I couldn't continue. I was destined to revenge against Stonemaster. Heh. Due to some tiredness, I tried to play fast. I knew that when I reached 15 moves, I will start to make blunder. I punished his Dutch defense due to the misplacement of the knight. From then onwards, I just couldn't think anymore. In the end, I falter. I may need some rest.

The 7th round was against another FIDE rated, Lim Kian Hwa. A sarawak Champion. I was outplayed in the opening because I wanted to try something different since he said "Did you see my previous game since all my moves were same with the previous few rounds?". Well, I did not see his games. Maybe there were some coincidence. I lost that game.

My 8th and 9th round were a drawish game. The kid at the 8th round played drawish game by exchanging everything. While against Dr.Paul, I just offered draw because I was too tired to think.

After that tournament, I got sick. I cough and now I am sitting here with my fever. It's a great tournament I would say. I met with former National Master, Christy Hon. Well, I did not know him till someone told me about his name. He gave me some ideas. It's great knowing him. :)

Time to Get Crazy

It's time to get things right. Time flies so fast that I couldn't reflect on what's happened for the past times. I have been training with my retentive memory in chess for the past few days and hopefully within end of this year, I shall have my National rating be above 1600. I need to set my goals on where I must be next year. Dreams and fantasy. Which one is reality that can be achieved? Dreams are often to be connected with fantasy but to achieve bigger dreams, one shall ought to be crazy enough.

The dreams of going up to the podium again to feel the champion's feeling again shall be my priority. By the time I got up the podium, I would thank the special one that make the world so beautiful again. Without the one, I shall not be where I am today. As my motivation is back at the peak to achieve bigger dreams. Now I shall finish the work loads that has piled up for the past 1 year.

In this few years time, chess has accompanied me as a true friend. I had neglected it sometimes but not, I realised that it helps when I want to find myself battle through the competitions. The feeling of battle in life is the same like in chess. The survival of the strongest. What is really retentive memory? It is a kind of memory that someone can reflect back all the movements for the past few years. Bobby Fischer had it. I need to train myself on that.

Love

There are many forms of Love. What is really love? Love needs sacrifices and not materials. Materials is just a want and not a need. When you love someone, no matter what he/she does, it is still sweet. Love by looking at materials will not be as happy as usual because one shall not evaluate the person's inner. I read half way about the book "One Minute for Yourself". It's true that one ought to take care of himself before taking care of thee and we.

Sometimes, rejection happens and the relationship turns sour, but for me, I am a person with big heart that shall forget everything and won't keep it in mind. Just click "next". For those past, I shall just treat them normal and help when needed. Nothing more. What is past is just a past. Just bless them with future happiness. I learnt to take care of myself better starting few days ago and I realized that I can be happy too if I close my eyes and asked myself "Do I take care of myself today?". Why one ought to show an unhappy face around to other people if one is really unhappy? Thus, this person is torturing himself/herself. Now, the virtue of happiness is laugh and smile, and everything shall be clear. If one just ignores me, it doesn't matter to me because he/she is torturing himself/herself.

In order to give myself more time, I tried to gain extra 1 hour everyday for myself. I shall try to wake up earlier to do what I should do for myself. There are a few things to settle tommorrow. One shall need to look at the broader picture and learn from the past.

Jimmy Lai asked me something which I clearly remembered till now. He asked "Do you know how to cook? Do you know how to do house chores?" Of course I do know how to cook and do house chores. Then he said, "good, next time, must treat your wife good and do them together. Never be an egoistic man that just command around." The conversation was something to be like that. It's true that many couples married nowadays, they face such problem where there will be no conversation among them after many years due to working environment. Thus, less and less conversation between them. Therefore, if the husband just sit around and doesn't help out, the wife will feel helpless because she has to handle them everyday.

When in a relationship, the starting will just be a hot and happy moment, but the turn around is different when it enters different stages. That would be just like in the graph above. Many people fail to understand that when times goes on, the relationship turns into a stale mate position. Less and less conversation and commitments to maintain the sparks. A relationship needs some spices and surprises to make it grows and become stronger. Never ever compare other people's lovers for everyone is different with their own strengths and weaknesses. No one is perfect after all. Thus, I promised myself not to be like the graph above. If you love someone, gives everything. Even if it fails, it's a destiny. What is yours will be yours, what isn't will not be.

There will always be a saying, never judge a book from its cover. One can use the flirting techniques to make a girl happy. Jokes, romantic environment moments and materials never fail to impress a girl. There will always be a player out there, just a matter of luck if some really meet up with that. A player will always change a new lover when he is bored with the old ones. Just like Sun Tzi Art of War. One needs to be responsible of his/her own actions.

I for now, just focus on myself. Shall I play in the Selangor Open? If I do, then I shall need to practice harder. The sprit "Never Give Up"!!! Failures is just a step away from success in the future. My love for Chess is borderless.

The Feeling of Winning

It has been a long time since I did not have the feeling of winning. Sometimes, you win something in order to lose something. For the past few days, I read a book, "One Minute for Yourself". I felt great when I choose to change. I need to take care of myself better first. Spending one hour extra for myself to take care of everything early in the morning.

Now, I have several work task to handle. The marks and rendering must be completed this week. Great powers come great responsibilities. The UM Zonal Sports is awaiting me too. I need to train several people in order to reclaim back the champion's medal that I underperformed last year. This time, I will play as solid as ever by using imaginative play. Study the position. There are many readings to do this month. After the UM Zonal sports, hopefully I can play for UM Staffs for the next tournaments. I shall better my record there. I must prove that I can really play chess!!!

There will be a lot of tournaments around. I shall pick a few and fight on. Never Give Up. If I find the right team, I shall play in the Merdeka Tournament too. It has been a long time I have never felt this focus.

Astonishing UiTM Chess Open

I played in the UiTM Chess Tournament on last Sunday. I never thought that many strong players would come. They were Ian Udani, Kamaluddin Yusof, Abdullah Che Hassan, etc. I was sitting at the 12 th table when the game started. I won the first 2 games and a row and got 2 points. I was shock to meet the 1st seeding player, Ian Udani, a Phillipine guy residing in Malaysia. It was terrible because I was at table 15th previously and now at TABLE 1!!! I tried to play my best against him. Everyone was watching a duel between Ian and I. I felt like a superstar that moment. Heh... Anyone got such experience before where everyone is watching over you within 50 cm and they are players from all ages. Well, luck wasn't on my side when I lost in a winning position due to time trouble. Maybe I used all my time thinking on how to win the game. Finally I falter but I gained some respect for gaining advantage on the position against Ian Udani.

Then after that, I was so tired. I used up all my strength against Ian Udani. I won the next round easily. In the 5th round, I was in a winning position but I used up all my time in thinking again. Well, that's luck I think. I NEVER GIVE UP on HOPE. I won my next 2 round in a great battle as I played safely. Finally, I scored 5/7 and I won the best IPT award for that. Though I was ranked 15th / 95 players, it's a good achievement anyway. I will keep on fighting. I will upload the picture in my friendster and facebook. Ganbatte....

Politicize of Languages

I feel ashamed with certain parties that politicize the languages problem. Learning Science and Maths in English is a positive moves. I learnt all the Science and Maths in BM, thus I had problems in understanding them when I entered university. What is the purpose of education then when there are a lot of different meanings when English is translated into BM? When the Gov started to implement that, it's a bilingual where students can answer them in two languages.

Isn't that in Form 5, they have more than 10 subjects. If there is an English course, what other subjects that use English? NONE if everything is BM. Even when we go out to work, accounts will always be in English. The terms and everything. Who would use BM to do accounts? I am pity with certain parties that use this opportunity to squash the government. Learning Science and Mathematics in English will not deteriorate the BM level. Instead, all teachers must use this as a platform to learn. Didn't the teachers know that learning never ends, thus, English in Science & Maths is important. The teachers told the students "Learning never ends" but do they understand that themselves? I believe not all teaches are like that. So, if those teachers in rural area do have problems in teaching subjects in English, why can't they upgrade themselves then? Is that hard? Who knows how to run when they are just born?

These kind of people bring shame to the education for not understanding the global needs. To understand science, one must learn English and not look at the past of how great the civilization was. Instead, learn from the past, to better the present. And not take advantage to gain political fame. BM will always remain our National language. Learning Science & Maths in English is not an insult to the BM language, because, there are many literature written in English. In University level, you need to write the Journals or Conference paper in English. Would we write "tetikus" in the conference? Just take a look at the Mathematics. If you translate certain words to BM, it sounds funny. If these students are sent to the foreign universities, will they excel? Look at the quality in public universities. When will Malaysia going to have that kind of standard? I despise those political parties that politicise languages for their own fame. If I send them to overseas, can they speak in English fluently? I may not be the best, but I learn till I die.

Deep Inside

I am sitting here writing my blog. For the past few months, I had been wandering around too much. I lost my concentration and think a lot of stuff. Everything seems urgent to handle. My mind is just too tired. Maybe deep down inside, I am lonely. Maybe that's the bachelor's life at this moment. Looking for the right one to settle down. There are options, but what are my future ahead? Sometimes, I do ask myself this question: "Which one do you prefer? A person who love you more than you love her/him? or vice versa." I don't know the answer for I don't want to hurt anyone. I just don't know...whether is that the right one. I don't want to think too much, for I don't want to wander around anymore. I am glad that she is around, but I can't commit myself into it at this moment. If I were to commit myself, I am not sure whether I can give 100% commitment anymore. Just let the destiny decides.

One of the leader, Jimmy Lai told me that as a man, whether husband or boyfriend, one must not be a chauvinist, that only hear of himself without thinking about others. It's true that, when a relationship enters into a few years time, everything will be dull. A man must help his woman around no matter where he is. One must let down the ego in order to have a stable relationship and not by comparing the other half.

I am just too tired...way too tired...that I want to escape from the human population that only got sea. I shall lie down on the beach and sip my red wine, enjoying the sea breeze. I need a break.

As human got multiple personalities, I do hope that I can terminate one of the personalities, which terrorize my mind. It distracts me. If given a chance, I would eliminate all my memories because it can terminate the personality off from my mind.

Borrow, Lend

I have a habit of lending my stuff to other people. When people forget to return them after a long period, they tend to have forgotten. So next time, I need to make a clear stand on when they must return my stuff. Maybe I am too kind that people tend to forget that they have borrow a simple thing.

Tired but Need to Focus

It'd been a hectic Sunday for me. After coming back from Kuantan after CNY on Saturday, I clean part of my unwanted stuff. I slept late that day. On the Unitar Tournament, I met several new friends, though some were my enemy on the board, but we are friends after that. I had my fantastic first round with 3 games. I won the first 3 games. There were 148 players overall, with some as young as 8 years old i think or even lesser.

Then at the 2nd half, I played terribly at the 4th round by losing in the opening. It's an unusual loss for me in the opening game. My opponent was the winner of Unitar Tournament. It should have been a great fight if there wasn't any blunder by me. I won my 5 th round and sat on the 4th table again. This time, I played against the player from Unitar, whom I shall say in an equal position. I offered him a draw but he declined as we had time trouble. My weaknesses would be in the endgame where it was fatal to prove the truth in my endgame.

In my final 8th round, I lost again terribly due to blunder to the same person whom I can beat in previous meetings. He knew that too... Well, I need to stay focus and learn from my mistakes not to repeat them again. Overall, i got 28 out of 148 but I have the highest WP in the 5 pointers.

Seems like Valentine is coming soon. Wealth is on the way and I don't care what hindrance are there for me. It's a great profit if we really can make the business successful. If u treat a friend truthfully with true heart, he/she will acknowledge that. If a friend who used other people for own benefit, that's not call a true friendship. Ask yourselves, close your eyes and look back what have you really done. If a person is narrow minded, he/she will never admit it.

Well, as for now, nothing can stop me. I need to stay focus. Starting tomorrow, I will finish the urgent task.

Change

Ah...I bough a book about "How to Simplify Your Life". It's great and I only read first few pages. I realized that I need to change as I have many things up in my mind. Everything seems disorder. Now I need to order myself. First, start at home. Throw everything that is expired. Arrange everything in order for easy search and label them. It's a hectic day today and yesterday.

Yesterday, I just won a Silver medal in SUKMUM. Though we won in the team spirit but I felt that my performance was not there. I felt something was amiss and now I understand what I lack of. I need to strengthen my endgame. I can gain advantages in the opening and middlegame, but not how to convert that to a winning point. I bought a book about endgame too, thus I will learn some everyday.

After SUKMUM, I went for gathering. It's the most exciting day for me too meet coursemates again after so long. Guess I was the last person to reach there. Sorry for that guys.... Glad to see everyone is in tip top condition. It has been a long time no see Ah Fai...nearly can't recognise him. The rest, I still got see them...haha..no changes...Wish everyone Happy Chinese New Year...

After reunion dinner, Alicia and I went to Syuen's house for mahjong. We had a fantastic games where Alicia won most of the games. I got the "ghost pieces" for the entire time...When I want to win, Alicia won first... :( ....Guess luck was not on my side that day. Well, let's not think about negative things. Think of a better tomorrow.

As for today, I went to Midvalley to treat my hair. It was crowded and I walked for 7 hours. I spent quite a lot today just for food. I just love to eat. Eating is the most enjoyable thing for a human.

When I type this, I flashbacked on a lot of things. All of a sudden, love topic. I would laugh myself over this thought of a sudden. What is Love by the way? Can love become hatred? Well, it depends on people. Some may have let go everything, while some may still keep it. For me, I just cleared that long time ago, just like formatting a computer. It's just a past.

Now, I have my own world. Friend from all around the world. Love? Neh...Friends love, family love...bla bla bla...As long as I am happy, that's what matter. I am thinking, will a gal ever ask me, "Do u love/like me?". What would be my reaction? I guess, my answer now would be if I love the gal, "I dare not to think. Dare not to think means dare not to think." The answer would be the same like the HK Drama "Mooncake Resonance". I had opened up my mind. In this world, nothing is perfect. Storms comes and go just like that.

Next time, if I have a good feel on a gal, I would just treat her nice. Loving someone from heart is not necessary to be together. It's great when you see her happy, and solve her problem when noone is there. My answer would be the above. I just don't want that to be turned into hatred or avoidance. Sometimes, it's best to keep silence just like in one of the Jay Chou's song.

Well, for me now, just enjoy and build up my fortunes.. Nothing comes easy but nothing is impossible, though impossible is nothing. If there is a will, there is a way. A person who does not try before, will never understand the hardship to achieve success.