New Year 2009

New Year 2009 is coming to town. The past 2008 is just a past that could only be remembered.
Learn from the past, to better the present and to plan for the future.

My resolutions for 2009:

1. Finish my master
I have been dragging too long and lost myself in the pool. I have to motivate myself to move on within this 6 months. I'd set my goals and gonna turn myself to a new leaf. I am gonna changed for good.

2. Push my National Chess Rating above 1600.
My love for chess is enormous. Though I may not be the best chess player, but it's the fun and excitement that keeps me awake.

3. Plan and upkeep my finance
I need to plan my finances and see the liquidity. There are too many investments being made and I need to finance a lot of things.

4. Business.
I need to see the priorities of job and my future. I will not give up but I need to slow things down as I need to finish what is unfinished before starting a new project.

5. Plan for a House
I am preparing my finances for the year 2009 and see myself in 2010 whether am I able to own a property of my own. Let's just see.

In this 2009, there is no relationship resolutions as I let what the destiny decides for me. The year shall be a peaceful and full with excitement waiting for me in 2009. Successes is within my hand if i Dare to Dream, Dare to Think and importantly, Dare to Do!!!

Rejection

How do u take rejection? There are many forms of rejection whereas all of it leads to unhappiness. It's easy to be rejected and get hurt. However, how many people can click "Next" when rejection happens? Not many I think. I started to read the book about rejection. There is no point harping on the same objects or issues when rejection occur. I used to be a serious person towards rejection. I take it heavily on my shoulder, but now, due to the book, I started to realise why would I want to harm myself with rejection. It is in our daily life. If you dislike a person, thus u will start to apply self-defence mechanism, and from then on, you will talk badly about the person no matter what he/she does. This is human nature. You will feel anger yourselves and thus, who will fall sick? You or him/her? Of course the answer is you.

I'd never been in relationship, but I do understand how life imitates chess. I'd chased gals before in my life but now, is it important. The most important in life is learning how to get up again after each fall. The present and the future awaits us there. Break up issues is just a normal learning towards preparing everyone to becareful about the future partnership. There is no right or wrong in love or who sacrifice a lot for one another. There is no measurement for that as long as the spices are there.

For those couples, relationship gets dull or bored when they reach 3rd years or 2nd years. Why is it happen to be like that? As they grow older, spending time together, doing the same thing over and over again, will lead to boredom. Girls and guys are 2 different species. Guys will feel bored doing the same thing over and over again, whilst girls will feel sweet about what the other do. Then the worse would be started to compare the other half with other people. Comparison would lead to separation too. It's just a matter of time, like a time bomb.

To be continued..........

Solution

Is health worth RM70? Anyway. I have thought out how to solve it. Just install back the old one by calling a plumber to install another new pipe for sure. That's it. It's fast and easy. I coudn't imagine to see the green slimmy thing inside that pot and someone use to drink from there. Human ony got scared when they really got sick. They can fork out more than RM70 to go out shopping and eat in a day but not for the many months of one filter. How pathethic? Some more, really typical chinese.

I already tested the mineral pot with my water filter. The algae doesn't appear at the mineral pot for 6 months. It appeared many times when the old one was used. I would definately won't drink that algae. That's why I would ask "Is RM70 expensive?" I wonder who that hell use the water filter to wash plates and cups. If want to wash vegetables, at least put the water in the basin first, and not keep the tap open and flow out.

I am lucky to be unsuccessful in the courtship because it's totally different. I thanks the lowyat people for helping me out. Is it worth to be treated like that? The answer is NO!!! I just wouldn't care anymore. There are many people who deserve to be treated good. If u treat a person bad, that person will treat u bad back. It's karma. Nowadays, I despise people who used people for their own benefit. When they need u, they will call u. When they don't need u, they push u away. From now onwards, only certain people deserve good treatment from me. Try to think back at what everyone did that time, and it's totally clear.

When I think back at the past, it's funny that I learn a lesson from there. It's hillarious. I was stupid back then. Lucky that I am awake long time ago. I don't have to explain much because people can read from a person's talking. When they do conversation, the maturity is in the speech made. No matter how u try to explain, they can judge from the way u talk. Those childish point. When u say other people are childish, instead u r the one who is childish.Who would still think back of u then? I definately let go 1 yr ago due to massive supporters giving me outline.

Who is ur real true friend? A real true friend will support you no matter what happen and try to understand problems before sorting them out. They won't bash you like calling u got poison or etc. If a person is successful, the true friend will congratulate him. I am glad that I do have true friend supporting me. True friends never count money with each other that much.Sometimes there are limit in asking for help and never ever cross the mark.

Sometimes it's pathetic when they don't want to get more knowledge. They would rather listen to others instead of trying out themselves. They would just use "My friend said ...", instead of "I try myself ...". That's why they would never ever think out of the box to seek the knowledge. They totally shut out the knowledge. This concept is true: If a human smell a rose, he/she will be happy to accept it. But if he/she smell a shit, they would apply some defense.

I wouldn't mind if they read my blog for I don't need them for my successes.

Typical chinese

Do u know what is the meaning of "typical chinese"? It means someone who is not willing to understand things and accept the truth. Is RM70 that expensive? OMFG...this is the answer i got from someone who do not understand that health is more important than money. They can even spend more than that on clothes but not on health. That water treatment is RM3200 and I don't even grumble when I install that for god sake. Yet, they still use it before this.

Even the fridge too, they only place 1/10 of the cost or less than that. Why don't they stop using the fridge as well? I don't care if they see it in my blog or not. I can say that most of the things in the house, fridge, modem, etc, I buy. What have they contribute? NONE!!!!

Blunt

I met with some new chess friends and it was fun to play with them again. This year's GACC was kind of lesser participants. I played a few games with them and I realized that my attacking was blunt as compared to the past. There was a time when I played real aggressive that I can kill off an opponent. Just as the feeling was gone, the attacking power was gone.

From then onwards, I need to understand back the basic. What is chess? How to play the real game? How to play for win? I lack the power and understanding. I need the motivation again to play if I can get myself a training partner. I need to change myself. Will there be anyone who can change me?

Inside of me, there is an emptiness to fill. The attacking power is blunt. I need a goal. A dream. Hope that this can spur me to move on. I have got to train her as well as to train myself to be in a tip top condition again. GACC 2009. I will be back.

Pathetic

It's really pathetic when u try to tell someone about the importance of closing the gate everytime he/she goes out and all you got is being ignored or fought back. It's because everytime someone never close the gate and this would create attention to any law breaker. How could someone with higher education level would never think of that? It's really pathetic when they do not admit their own mistakes.

I said: " You did not close the gate when you went out that morning around 6am." And the reply i got: "You also din close last time." I was like pathetic to such an answer because I close the gate everytime I go out. I won't leave it ajar, like inviting people to come in. Hasn't they heard of "precaution is better than cure"? This really make me a bad mood for today.

Else I would scream "what the fuck...i close the gate everytime i go out!!"

Relationship

It's pretty true that humans like to assume. I learn that in relationship, if it fails, just click "Next". Is it that hard to click the button? Well, it ain't anymore. I'd proceeded with life searching for other opportunities which is worth while for me to chase, rather than hanging on the impossibilities, for the past years.

During that period, I played shares, unit trusts and part time as well just to search the meaning in life. I am lucky that many supporters out there would give the poll result to me. It was 97 vs 2. Thus, the saying was really meaningful regarding a tree story. I am grateful to that person who said, "Don't stand too near the tree, try to step backward a few step. Have a look at the tree overall. Look around you and see." This magic words unlocked my soul which was trapped for years. Is it worthwhile? Now I know the answer. What I seek is really a different one.

The moment time passed by, my business made me to think objectively. Dare to change and challenge myself. Don't stop just because others fail to do it or do it half way. I have let go of what is consider to be a past. There is no point harping on the past. Life is great with that way.

Like I said, life is just like a chess game. In chess, there are pawns. There will be no U turn once a pawn move is made. There are people who likes to assume which something is not. The glory of the past is still a past. What human should think is NOW and the FUTURE.

The meaning of an eye for an eye: How u treat a person would be reflected by how he treats him/her back. In life, it always take 2 person to do tango. In business, I walk alone, embraces myself with my team, though to have a soul mate to work on it is 10 times easier, but, the goal is meaningful to do it alone. Now, I live happily with no regrets or keeping the past.

Compare

Life isn't about comparing each person. Everyone has his/her own capabilities. Why would there people who always compare a person in term of compatibility? Some would compare wealth, outlook and intelligence. If there is such a person who likes to compare and wait for the perfect one, he/she will just wait and wait till the time ends.

I heard a story. A student asked the teacher "What is love?" The teacher told him "Go to the field and pick one beautiful grass that u think is the best. Never U turn back to pick as u go along the field." The student went to the field and follow the instruction till he picked the best grass that he thought so. The moral of the story is that, there will always no U-turn when it's already a past. Sometimes thing that you own, consider best but as you go along, there will be better and better, thus, you will neglect the thing that you own and chose the impossible.

As for me, I'd given up hope on relationship at this moment unless there is someone who enlighten me when I am down, sad or tired. Now all I care is only expanding my business and help out those who really needs help. It's more to symbiosis for the betterment of my people as I need to lead them. Nothing is perfect but perfection comes from the heart. If you treat a person nice without condition, they can feel it whether it is real or fake. I'd seen and felt that. Thus, an eye for an eye.

Losing Job

It is 1am now. Something really bothers me lately. Have anyone ever thought "what's the feeling like when u lose ur job?" I faced that before and nearly fell into that. The feeling was really terrible that it will make you can't sleep through the nite. I kept asking myself: "Why would I want myself to be binded to the job? Is this the life I want? If I am at 40 years old, and it happens to me, what shall I do?" Those were the questions that linger in my mind.

Many people do not think about theur back up plan. They thought that working alone is a satisfaction and a guarantee to live a happy life. Thus, when they reach home, they will just relax, watch TV, eat and finally sleep after a hard work in the office. What happen if this repeat for 20 years? Then suddenly, one of them got fired or down with illness? I am sure that they will say "Luckily I have insurance." The problems are:

1. Do you want to depend on the insurance to take care of the family when you are gone?
2. What's family to you when you don't even have time for them when all you want is working?
3. Do you think that it is sufficient?
4 Do you want to lie down on the bed while the family members suffer from grievences?

They will just say "Ah, it won't happen to me. or I only think about now." Thus, they will only scared when it really happens to them.

Now, I just want to change myself. I don't want to be in such a scenario during the economy crisis in 2009. If it happens every 10 years, what will be my back up plan? That's why I really fight for my business.

Chances

Economy is so uncertain nowadays. Everyone is looking for chances in their life. It includes me too. Do people really plan for their back up? If anything happen to them, can they really finance their life? I for sure won't be waiting till the emergency creeps into my life.

Now I found my own way and creating more chances for myself. Ever since I made the best moves in life, I'd been stronger. Ups and downs in life is just a knowledge to gain. There is nothing to be sad of. Just click "Next" when there is a rejection. That's what in biz and life all about. There are people who would always compare people around and think they are very great. They do not look at themselves before judging others. Well, just avoid such a person if there are any because they are really fake in their attitude. The most beautiful person would be a successful person, no matter how he/she looks like as long as his/ her attitude is the genuine him/her that always place others before himself/herself.

To achieve financial independence, I'd geared up my will and effort to achieve my dreams. Don't just talk but do. Now, I am doing it for the sake of my future. I have to remind myself of what I want in life rather than chasing something that is out of my reach. I'd switched from playing d4,c4 to e4, f4 in life practically but not in chess. Sacrificial game is what i play now.

Firstly, I thanked for the "Great Depression" in 2007 that opened up my windows to the world, that I must seek to fulfill my dream alone. Human will only appreciate things they have if they really work hard for it. The glory and fame. Now, I am expanding my network without regrets, to help those in need.

Selfishness

I was pretty busy developing another 22 graphics today. The internet was very slow and lagging, thus I discovered that it was due to the Skype. Someone used skype. What should I do? Tell her that Skype is causing all this problem. The whole internet line was damn lagging.

I tried restarting the router a few times in hope that she will stop the Skype. Yet, I still failed. At last, I told her that her Skype was causing all this problem. The reply I got was "I don't want streamyx then. I pay for streamyx coz of chatting with xxx". Omfg, with this reply, my mood instantly went from 100 to 0. Why? Firstly, I hate people who is selfish, thinking about own interest. Other people also pay for the same access. If the connection causes everyone from accessing internet, then what are we?

I don't really care if she doesn't want the internet because this shows that this person is a selfish person till that she can utter this word. Is she an understanding person? I guess whoever heard such word, will agree with me. She should apologize from me. How pathetic is she who just think of herself and not others.

Anyway, just let it be. I am not gonna waste my time on this. I am concentrating on my success. Let me be the bad guy then. When hints fail, straight to the point. Though it may hurt, but what are my choices when there are complaints. If they themselves scared, they will just be sitting there doing nothing.

Life

Working life. Is it fun or boring? I am sure that many people would look up for weekends activities rather than spending time in the office. What can u do? Is this the so called "life" to us? There are many opportunities out there. It's just a matter of whether the person wants to make changes.

Some would just sit and spend their time at home doing what they like till 50 years old. Have you ever thought of going for vacation? Everyone thought of vacation but they will see the wallet right after they are back from the vacation. Is this a real vacation? We constantly check our wallet when we are eating while on vacation. We always want something cheap but nice. Is this really life?

I for sure would like to change the environment. The chances are out there. It's just whether I want to have a slice of it. I don't want to just sit around, working 24 hrs like no tomorrow and there goes my 50 years. Some people may say that "Ah, he got poisoned!!" Well, I got poisoned but I am spreading the poison for goodness. Thus, it's helping me as well.

Think of what you want and focus in doing it.